Homecoming…

I have been away from here so long that everything seems so new, but nostalgic at the same time.  Everything is as I left it and everything has changed so much upon my return.  I am glad to be back to a place where nothing has to make sense, but it does. Mickey and I are still raising the Monkey.  He is growing bigger and smarter everyday. Those two boys test my courage, my strength and cooking skills daily.  I have had several obstacles in my life since last I wrote that have caused me to feel lost and second guess myself continuously,  but they have also helped me find a new directive.  I cannot say quite yet if this new directive and resurgence in some faith of the human spirit is working out, but I will let you know in time.  I have come to see that my tenacity and perfectionism are both my strengths and weaknesses.  I am only one person trying to achieve that of an entire army.  I have let myself down in quite a few ways, but excelled in places I never thought success was achievable. There are certain dreams I had set out to make realities and I am starting to come with terms that some might just remain dreams. Life is funny like that…slams doors in your face, but leaves a spare key under the doormat.